For this season

Wow can’t believe we are in a new year already. Most people would be excited, I'm excited but not in a way that I normally am about a new year. The truth is I’m more scared than I am excited!!!! I have been feeling sick in my stomach since yesterday about the year ahead. I just can’t shake the feeling and have no idea where it has come from, it’s turned up unannounced and has taken me by surprise.

What I am scared of exactly?

The answer to that I don’t even know. I can try and figure out what it is but it doesn’t make a lot of sense...I’m scared of the unknown, I’m scared of trusting God. But this reasons aren’t really true. The unknown and trusting God can be daunting but to be scared by them, no!

I feel in my spirit that God is really preparing me for this year ahead. Preparing me in a way that I have never experienced. I believe that this year is going to be massive, I feel like I'm really going to be tested, stretched, challenged am I ready? I don’t feel ready but it’s not about what I feel, it’s about what God needs to do in me for this season in my life.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

There is a time for everything, and a season for very activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them. a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, and time for war and a time for peace. 

My God is faithful

Once again another year is over and as everyone does I reflected over this past year, 2011. As I looked back over the whole year, one big mosaic picture, I was totally blown away by God's faithfulness. 2011 was a year of saying yes, stepping out with boldness, walking into the unknown, learning to let God have full control, seeking Him more than I ever have, facing my fears head on, leaving family and friends for an unknown period, having a new intimate love with God, loving my husband more than the day we got married, emotional breakdowns, new skills learnt, new friends made and entering a new season. 

There is no doubt that this past year we have been exactly where God wanted us to be.

During the year God provided every need, not just some, but ALL our needs. He has been more than enough at exactly the right time. Not once have we gone without, He came through every single time! As we made ourselves available to Him, He made Himself faithful to us. What have I learnt this year? It's that MY God is faithful and He will NEVER let me down, all I need to do is be obedient and say yes to whatever He asks and He will do the rest.